Sad story: It was raining, so heavily

I had an argument with my friends,

over some petty stuff.

But I was deeply offended.

So I was being quiet the whole time,

till the last class of that day.

I walked outside the class, and it was raining.

It was raining heavily, that I couldn't see any cars parking around the compound,

just the beam lights.

I saw my grandma,

I ran to her, I was already wet.

"Mak, mintak-mintaklah tok abah dah sampai."

I told my grandma, hoping my tokabah had already arrived because it was raining.

"Kakak, tokabah kan dah takde..."

With sad eyes, she told me that my grandfather was not 'here' anymore.

It woke me up,

I was in tears.

It's 3.30am in the morning.

It's not raining, it's almost Fajr.

I was on my bed, in Montreal.

Crying over him, who was gone.

I knew the dream was a sign,

a sign that told me,

tokabah is missing me.

He came into my dream, as rain.

He was visiting me that night, to check on me,

I can feel him.

Tokabah, kakak rindu tokabah.

Kakak selalu teringatkan tokabah.

Kakak tahu tokabah tenang di sana,

tapi kadang-kadang kakak rasa macam tokabah masih ada.

Kakak still ingat semua cerita yang tokabah selalu cerita kat kakak,

dah nak puasa ni,

kakak rindu air sirap bandung yang tokabah buat.

Kakak rindu nak belikan tokabah baju raya.

Tok abah selalu pakai baju yang kakak pilihkan,

kakak selalu nangis sebab rindukan tokabah.

Tapi kakak tahu kakak taksepatutnya nangis,

sebab tokabah selalu cakap,

walaupun kakak manja, kakak kuat.

Tokabah,

nanti kakak balik, kakak visit kubur tokabah okay?

Kakak takbalik tahun ni, tahun depan kakak grad insyaAllah.

Kakak sedih, tokabah takboleh datang, tapi tokabah mesti tahukan,

kalau kakak dah grad nanti.

Tokabah mesti happy sebab cucu tokabah dah dapat degree.

Tokabah selalu pesan suruh belajar tinggi-tinggi,

kakak akan belajar betul-betul.

Dulu, setiap kali exam, tokabah mesti buat solat hajat untuk kakak,

tokabah cakap tokabah selalu doakan kakak.

Terima kasih, tokabah.

Allah mungkin makbulkan doa tokabah.

Tokabah, kakak tak sempat nak bagitahu tokabah, 

kakak dapat straight A exam semester ni, and semester lepas.

Ini hadiah untuk tokabah.

Sekarang,

kakak pulak doakan tokabah, okay?

Semoga tokabah tenang di sana.

Semoga Allah merahmati tokabah.

Kakak rindu tokabah.